不能喜歡你

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其實我喜歡你,卻不能喜歡你。

剛剛認識你不久,其實已經欣賞你。不過當時要重新適應香港的生活,對你的認識也不深,可以說,沒有天時、地利、人和的條件因素。及後知道你身邊已經有另一半,就更令我卻步。直到最近,你竟然注意到我的存在﹒﹒﹒

作為你的朋友,今日我對你的忠告是:這幾年你和另一半所付出的感情,不值得為我而放棄。

我的內心深處,其實有一道可能永遠不會癒合的傷口,教我無法跟別人正常地交往。三年了,這個傷口仍然滴血,亦因為這段往事,教我知道真有「心痛」這一回事。

這心痛使我求「重生」不得,彷如打落十八層地獄,永不超生。發作的時候,我的心就如被人無情使勁地緊扼,像是要把我的心從身體內抓出來,那撕裂的疼痛一發不可收拾,從心房爆發,直達五臟六腑,再漫延到四肢,就連呼吸都不能自己;每一次發作,我都動彈不得,像這次會是我最後一次呼吸一樣。有時我想,可能我永遠不能再去愛人,因為愛的配額早在三年前已經用光了。

朋友,今天天時、地利、人和依然沒有把你和我連在一起,或者我們的緣份就止於朋友吧!所以,請好好珍惜你的另一半,好好珍惜你愛的配額,也請你好好珍惜我這個朋友。

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現職傳媒及翻譯,因面對麵包和白開水問題,而經常徘徊於理想和現實取捨之間。 本來天生頗有慧根,聰明活潑,讀書成績名列前芧,以為萬千寵愛在一身,於是恃著自以為有的小聰明,橫行霸道,自以為是,無心向學,終自食其果,屬典型井底之蛙;長大後始知恨錯難返,於是化悲憤為文字,埋首寫作,希望為時未晚,將勤補拙,有朝一日修成正果。 現職傳媒及翻譯,因面對麵包和白開水問題,而經常徘徊於理想和現實取捨之間。 A Brief Introduction of the Author Born with sense and wisdom, the author was a cute and clever girl in her childhood. Her academic results were also always one of the best in the class. With everything she wants in her hands, she naively thought she was on the top of the world. Thus, she had become self-centred and narrow-minded before she had finally failed. She then realised her past was a total failure but instead of feeling sorry for herself, she has turned all the regrets into motivations to make it right again. She has started to experience the world, work hard on every aspect in life and enhance her knowledge and hopes it is not too late to make it up to what she has lost. Currently, she works in Media and Translation fields. But since she needs the bread and butter, she has always been struggling while pursuing her dreams.

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