冬節回想

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在外地生活多年,已經很久沒有在老家過節。

生不在大富大貴之家,能往外國圓夢已屬萬幸,若要每年回老家,便着實沒這個褔氣。不過離家多年,仍數這段時間最想家,因為老家香港跟很多東南亞國家一樣,深受中西文化影響,所以這段時間可以找到籍口慶祝的日子特別多:農曆冬至、聖誕、新年、團年、農曆新年,然後還有緊接的情人節,節日多得橫跨整整兩個月,而我通常也在這段時間,有月是故鄉明之感。

回想上次回家探望父母親,已是四年前的事了,但每次想起,心裡總有點剌痛,更有無限歉意 – 以前在家,每天見面,總不易察覺,但一段日子不見,乍見父母親兩鬢點點斑白,驚覺父母真的老了,他們現在需要的,正是我這個不孝女兒侍奉在側,不是身體上的照顧,卻是精神和心靈的照應、依靠和喧寒問暖的關懷。可是我一把年紀的同時,卻偏偏仍想為理想奮鬥,不但因此未能照顧父母,反是倒過來要他們擔心牛高馬大的我。

記得剛來澳洲時,母親曾經提過張曼玉主演的一套電影,電影名稱我已經忘了(假如有讀者知道電影名稱,希望可以提提我),但內容是描述一個中國女子,隻身走到美國,只求兩餐\一宿,可是掙扎求存的過程中,際遇坎坷,每每遇人不淑,受盡欺凌,在基本生活的邊緣痛苦徘徊,卻又苦無旁人傾訴,甚至為免老家擔心,家書每每編造美麗的謊言,但最後命運還是沒有眷顧她,她受不住生活的折磨,最終成了瘋婦 ! 家母當年每每想起我一個人飄洋過海,銀根不足,生活又不知是否過得去,再加上我報喜不報憂的性格,不奇然便會想到這故事,生怕我的命運會跟故事的主角不謀而合。我當時語塞,沒想到自己一個夢想,竟然為母親帶來這麼沉重而又不必要的壓力。

家母當年一夕話,至今我仍牢牢緊記,這些年來甚至成了我努力生活的最大動力,希望他日有所成就,好讓雙親感到老懷安慰 !

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現職傳媒及翻譯,因面對麵包和白開水問題,而經常徘徊於理想和現實取捨之間。 本來天生頗有慧根,聰明活潑,讀書成績名列前芧,以為萬千寵愛在一身,於是恃著自以為有的小聰明,橫行霸道,自以為是,無心向學,終自食其果,屬典型井底之蛙;長大後始知恨錯難返,於是化悲憤為文字,埋首寫作,希望為時未晚,將勤補拙,有朝一日修成正果。 現職傳媒及翻譯,因面對麵包和白開水問題,而經常徘徊於理想和現實取捨之間。 A Brief Introduction of the Author Born with sense and wisdom, the author was a cute and clever girl in her childhood. Her academic results were also always one of the best in the class. With everything she wants in her hands, she naively thought she was on the top of the world. Thus, she had become self-centred and narrow-minded before she had finally failed. She then realised her past was a total failure but instead of feeling sorry for herself, she has turned all the regrets into motivations to make it right again. She has started to experience the world, work hard on every aspect in life and enhance her knowledge and hopes it is not too late to make it up to what she has lost. Currently, she works in Media and Translation fields. But since she needs the bread and butter, she has always been struggling while pursuing her dreams.

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